| Yeah I do enjoy blog writing. Its not like I'm just compelled out of spite for other people. I love hearing opinions and I like voicing mine. Shocked?
This one is for everyone. Cause people can actually benefit from what one person has to say. At least I think so.
Oh and I do care... despite what some people think.
Just not ALL the time.
I care about other people.. and people taking note to being strong from what I can say to help people be more tolerant of each other.
Thats just my goal. I like so see people in accordance with each other despite their human weaknesses and flaws.
Its the greatest thing a person can ask for.
This is a blog coming clean because its healthy for people to wipe their slate I think.
I expect replies to this blog because more people than just me can benefit from it.
First I want you to explain to me all your faults the small and the big:
I can be selfish at times.. usually not when it comes to other people directly but myself and what I want, I am materialistic to an extent it's not what I love the most about life but it definitely helps, i'm brutally honest with people because I would rather be seen as an honest bitch than a lieing fake, I've talked about people I didn't know well enough because of what other people said or the bad impression I got of them or the fact that they had already had plenty to say about me for little or no reason, I rather call someone out whos pretending to be honest with me and not being so rather than ignoring it, I don't clash well with pushovers because pushovers are too sensitive, I get dramatic when I'm pissed off because I'm arguementative and I clash easily with people who make ignorant assumptions, I expect too much out of people hoping that people might be smart enough to decipher what a true friendship or relationship means rather than being fake, I have a nack for judging people quickly sometimes and assuming im better than them.. but not really for any reason other than trying to keep me away from people who aren't going to be willing enough to have a real friendship so that I remain happy, I care a lot about my appearence and it makes me sometimes self conscious to where sometimes I don't do things that I do other times and effects my rate of how outgoing I will be, I don't trust a lot of people, I sometimes mess things up with people and I constantly change my mind about how I feel because of peoples actions, I come off as a bitch when really I don't hate anyone until they give me a reason to.. and overal I don't actually "hate" anybody I just dislike them, i hate my father even though he provides a lot for me tha I'm thankful for and I never show it because I hate how hes ruined my family life, I always think my artowork or anything pertaining to my occupation isn't good enough, (But I suppose it makes me grow as an aspiring artist), I gossip just like every other human being.. even when I don't really mean something, I'm not really serious about much... I joke around too much and people for some reason take me too literally.. bummer, I'm basically just trying to have fun with life and people who get in the way of that for stupid reasons light my spark and blow my fuse. I'm not here to judge people on superficial things... I'm simply a human being. I want everyone to name one time that they've done the exact same. Honestly it doesnt matter to me how fucked up anyone is if they're a good person to me. And it shouldn't matter to anyone else.
Do you think that everyone does these same things? Of course we do
Now list all the things in your life that you appreciate, consider, try to practice, and live:
I love fashion and I love art (hence where the matieralism comes in), I love good friends, I enjoy trustworthy people, I am a trustworthy friend until you give me a reason to be otherwise and I stick up for who I care about despite their faults, I overlook a lot of crap in the world but for som reason people can see to do the same, I like to empower people and make them more self confident by telling them about my own life in hopes of them being able to relate to me, I don't think I'm ugly.. but I try to stay humble because no one is perfect.. I'm just hard on myself, I love having really intellectual talks with people, I love photography with so much in me, I'm a loyal girlfriend. I enjoy having only a few close friends, I'm not really concerned of what people think of me at a lot of times..if I did I' probably put up a lot bigger of a front with people... of course sometimes you give into the other side, I love my mom more than anything ever and I see her as a homie rather than a mother, I love just hanging out and doing stupid shit, I like people who are serious about their future and not hypercritical over everyone else, I like people who do care about themselves and don't let people walk all over them, I like independent confident people, I don't like people who are over judgemental, I'm always debating religion but I do believe in living a positive life with accordance to whats proper and kind evne if we all fail at it at times, people who are more concerned about what other people are doing rather than themselves, people who are wayyy overly jealous, i like people who dnot judge others upon materialistic possession rather than their virtues and morals and what kind of person they really are, people who don't speak up for themselves or anything they think dont always agree with me, I like candy and juvenile things, I like vandalism and I like chill people who care about important things but not too much, I love humor more than anything and funny people are usually my type.
List things that you look for in a friend:
Honesty, Trust, Unsuperficial, No envy, Deep conversations, Fun times, Laid back, Similar interests, Self reliant, Confident (but not cocky), People who love themselves and are positive. Just positive happy people with goals who are unsuperficial and worthy of some trust.
Now list what you think a real friend is:
I think idea of a real friend is someome who sticks around no matter how you act what you have or what you do because thats the entire reason people are friends or best friends. People all have flaws no one person is perfect. I've been best friends with Sarah Long since I was basically born and no matter how many times we piss each other off we never let each other go.. she doesn't care about how much money I have or what I get... and I don't care if she doesn't have as much as I do because that type of thing shouldn't matter, I love her for other reasons than that because I trust her and shes always been there even if we aren't 100% perfect and alike. Thats what real friends are. They don't judge one another. They don't hide things from each other or pick each other apart. They're people who care about who each other really is enough to overlook the things wrong with them. Even boyfriend and girlfriends aren't perfect but thats not why we love someone. Ignorance only sets people further back on the path. So what if someone comes off as bitchy? If they weren't a bitch to you.. then what is everyone so afraid of? Getting hurt because they're insecure? Grow some balls for once and just throw yourself into the world. No one can hurt you without your own consent. Everyone in this world doesmean things to people. The boldest people were the most brutally honest. People make a fucken living out of it. So no matter what people do its about the real them. And if they tell you that you don't know it you should trust them.. because chances are you just need to take a second look.
List some positive friendship aspects about yourself:
I always have peoples backs even when I don't agree with them.
I don't talk shit on my best friends. (And complaining doesn't count because everyone complains about someone here and there. Its human. People get annoyed)
I don't like when my friends are treated poorly by others because I end up sticking up for them through and through and it gets me into trouble
I don't enforce my beliefs on other people.. I want people to have their own opinion... just because I don't agree with it doesn't mean I disrespect you.
I like that I just want a real frienship and a positive lifestyle rather than one not worth my time or one festering with lies or being over superficial or materialistic things that don't affect the other person.
I like people who take responsibility for stupid things they did wrong.
Which leads me to say list 10 things you did wrong in the last year that you regret:
1 Getting close to someone I wasn't sure about and hurting them. (even though we're still friends)
2 Give up so easily
3 Pierce my own nose
4 Not talking to a lot of people or letting people get misconceptions about me based on false information other people gave them.
5 Not breaking off ties with certain people sooner
6 Drinking and doing other things a lot... because I don't really need them/want to do them much anymore
7 Not working harder on my artwork even though its the only thing I truly care about being successful in
8 Talking shit on people over certain people who I wasn't as close to as a though.. because those people would have probably made good acquaintences and maybe even friends if it wasn't for me being influenced by other peoples opinions
9 Letting anyone get to me who wasn't worth the time.. and there definitely were a few.
10 Not realizing all of these sooner
List what you think shouldn't matter in a friendship:
The small human mistakes people make
What they have or what their "parents" buy them
What they do for a living
How they dress
How they look
How good they are or aren't at something
What they're common interests are
Their family life
Who they date
Whether or not they share same morals/opinions as you
Now after answering all these analyze who you think you really are and who the people who care about you really are.
Because I came to a realization today.. that I absolutely love.. and trust me folks its empowering.
No one is ever going to make you feel inferior without your consent.
You will make mistakes and you cannot regret them.
You can be honest and you can hurt people.
You can be selfish and you can be overconfident.
You can have a shitty family life you can be loaded or poor. You can be a wet blanket or the life of the part. You can be an artist or a sports player or a performer or anything at all.
You can be so many things. And don't let other people tell you its because theres something wrong with you. Its who you are. And the right people will see the real you and the you that comes out sometimes and they'll love you anyways. Because they understand where your coming from because they're smart enough to realize they're not perfect.
Complaining about what someone has or does or how they are is being jealous in itself.
If something doesn't affect you negatively in your life directly... then its not something to judge someone upon. Being aroud with someone once or twice and takling to them somrtimes doesn't mean you know them. Judging someone on the things that are superficial just goes to show that have nothing real to judge you upon.
They don't know if your a trustworthy friend?
They don't know you'd always be there for them?
They have no idea that you'd overlook their flaws because you respected them as a person?
They don't know a lot of things because they don't bother to.
And if they don't its not worth your sweat and blood.
People teach me things everyday... and it just shows me how sad things really get to be when you can't even trust people that you've always been there for... or people you stood up for even if you weren't their best friends.
Most people can't be trusted... you yourself couldn't at one point im sure.
So then why does it matter so much to everyone?
Let things go and never look back at it.
Everything happens for a reason.
Don't be afraid to admit to what you've done wrong.
Even I have the guts to admit to everynoe publicly what I've done wrong.. but just because I'm wrong doesn't mean I'm regretful.. I know I'm human.
Its almost like what do you expect me to do.. dwell on every mistake I've made?
Grovel at your feet?
Adhere to every little want you have?
Drag me down?
For what purpose. Its stupid.
No one is put on this earth to serve anyone.
Friends aren't even here to serve each other.
I don't "ask" people to do anything for me unless I trust them and know I can depend on them for it. Nobodys working.... and I don't tell people what to do. They make their own choices.
(yes somehow I still get blamed for that sometimes)
People who let other people do that to them or people who are overly jealous are stupid.. and that alone makes you just as selfish as the people you drag down.
Having to watch what I do in fear of what everyone else thinks your entire life is not a way to live. And it isn't fair to you. I will live and I will live positive and people who can see past the bullshit to the real person are the ones I will notice and take a lot of mind to.
I don't think being selfish is necessarily wrong. If people were too giving the'd neglect themselves and that makes insecure people. Empower yourself. Think for yourself. be confident about who you are. If people are jealous of that then they're stupid.
They should be more confident in themselves as well. I think if the world was a little more selfish we'd have a lot more independent people who didn't depend on everyone else.
If you treat people right and help them when they need it you aren't a selfish person.
Its as simple as that.
And everyone else needs to realize that too because this is never just about me.. like everyone says.. I try and make it about everyone. People jsut don't listen to anything but the bullshit first because people are sometimes dirt.
In the sense that we are all human and do feel each others emotions we have always been about everyone. Everyone is equally guilty. No one is perfect.
And people who see past that are the ones that golden.
Find out who you are and who those people for you are..
If you find out get back to me... I'm always looking for a good person to surround myself with.
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And I'm sure I'm not the only one... |
